well, this was him. http://blogs.creativeloafing.com/cribnotes/2009/06/23/rip-shock-artist-joe-christ-linhart-1957-2009/
http://blogs.dallasobserver.com/unfairpark/2009/06/go_with_god_joe_christ.php
don't know why i feel the need to document it, but i do. i guess because jonathan is on any other social networking site i am on, and he might get weird or jealous (yes, over a dead guy, who i was over years ago). i hate having to answer to questions sometimes, i suppose.
despite what i said, joe could be quite entertaining. (sometimes overboard) he also cooked and cleaned when he lived with me. lol. don't get much of that now. lol. it's all good.
i still feel really weird. i had a lot of trouble sleeping last night, but i'm sure i'll sleep fine tonight.
and the fucker had the audacity to die in his sleep on fathers day. the article is right, he probably is or would be laughing if he knew this. of course, it is rather funny, in the dark humour kind of way. 8D

i could not continue that blog with talk of my life, so i had to do separate one.
so hmmmm. it's been quite a while. what to say? i went to cali a couple of weeks ago on the spur of the moment. my brother had viral meningitis and was in the hospital a few days. my sister had some buddy passes that someone else had given her, so i flew for free. of course by the time i was there a week later, he was considerably better, aside from the constant headache and fatigue. it was great excuse to go hang out for 4 days with the people from my alternate life. that being my brother, my best friend maura, and my other pal lucy. i always get really sad when i come home, though i could never leave my kids. you see, 8 years ago, i was planning to move back there when laura turned 18 the next year. instead, bam! i was pregnant by the next spring. so my life got all flipped around and i got gifted with this new life. but deep inside, there is a large chunk of me that relates more to myself in that setting with my cynicism and wit ruling me.
but anyway... don't think i resent my kids or anything. they are my life. i just feel a little out of place in my life.
my kids. ( pics )

i suppose i have been awol from my main internet activities. i was just pondering this while leaving a comment to the lovely marianne the shedlady, and realized that maybe my lack of focus on everything might be fixed by sitting down and typing out thoughts.
so, where the hell have i been? damned if i know. both girls are in school now, and i have the hours while they are at school "free". however, for some reason, i can't ever seem to get my house completely clean, i never have time to stop on here and do updates. hell, i can't even finish a book. and there are countless things i need to do that i keep putting off. maybe i read too much news and my insides are always churning from the sensationalized garbage that is our media. i know one thing, i am ready for this goddamned election to be over. only 2 more days on that. yayyy. i just want to know the outcome, though i still expect the capitalist - i mean republican party to rig the vote. i am sick of all the slander that has been going on, especially from the republican side. our nc senator actually is running an ad against her opponent talking about the godless americans. this ad actually has an actress with a similar voice to kay hagen saying, "there is no god."

now you all know, that i believe there is no god, but i am not kay hagen, who is a sunday school teacher and an elder at her church. so this is outright slander, which, btw, kay hagen is suing elizabeth dole over.
so libby the cunt revised the ad, but it is still talking in sneering terms about godless americans. hello bitch! i am godless, but i am a better person than many xtians i know. uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh.

hee hee hee. got you. vote for the right palin. ;D

http://www.michaelpalinforpresident.com/


speaking of sarah, things aren't going so well over there. i can't imagine why.
http://rawstory.com/news/2008/Cafferty_to_Blitzer_Dont_make_excuses_0926.html
http://rawstory.com/news/2008/Conservative_columnist_Palin_Clearly_Out_Of_0926.html
http://rawstory.com/news/2008/Paraguays_president_says_he_turned_down_0926.html

so iona recently informed me that when she grows up, she's going to make a shrink ray and make herself a kid forever and then she's going to work at whole foods. i asked her if she didn't want to capitalize on her invention, but she said, "no, i'll just work at whole foods."

this article made me laugh. it's my sick sense of humour. yes, it would be horrifying to see, but really if your drug makes you this stupid, maybe you should start smoking weed instead.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080831/ap_on_re_us/amputation_attempt_1

cords
Current mood: amused

i thought i would update my mp3 player, seeing as how i have not done so in over 2 years. we have a 2 drawer metal file cabinet beside the computer that we are supposed to keep stuff that is useful and needed around the computer. in looking for the cord to connect the player to the computer, this is what i found.
a westell modem
7 phone cords
2 universal power cords
a palm pilot that doesnt' work (back when they were 2 tone screened
the cradle to that palm pilot
4 random power cords to past implements
an outdated nokia cellphone and power cord
2 printer to computer cables
1 printer power cord
4 pieces of cable cord (i thought i had cleared that out)
2 fucked up head phones
4 present implement cords

but no cord for my mp 3 player. dammit.

wtf????? where did this shit come from? i used to always move to spring clean. (or whatever season it was)
we've been in this house 4 years.
strange.

as fucked up and close to my heart as my last post was, i believe this one is even worse. Mom says teacher let classmates vote autistic son out of class
yes that's right. to punish him, a child in kindergarten who has asperger's syndrome was voted out of class, weakest link style. then the teacher had each student say what they did not like about the kid. the kid has not been back to school since. every time his mother takes his sibling to school, he screams when she pulls up to the school.
this is not a suitable form of punishment. children, even moreso than adults are so vulnerable. i understand that a kid with discipline problems is frustrating, but to publicly ridicule him is not only unprofessional, it is downright cruel.
what i want to know is why this teacher has not been fired, or even suspended.
so, i'm taking opinions on this one too.

since i did that last post, i thought i would do a sweetened condensed version of an update, and where, floating among particles, i have been.
i can't even think of the timeline.
i think as of my last post, jonathan was out of work with a broken hand and had surgery on his hand.
and i think i mentioned the 7 acres of land his stepfather gave us. it turns out we probably will not be able to do the http://www.earthship.net/. it is difficult to get financing for this, and with our crappy credit, impossible. i know, it's made out of mainly recycled materials, and yet... we just are not able to bank enough money to do this. (not entirely given up) we do want to at least do passive solar. it will be a while before we can start, as the land is currently rented out of hay production. (well, not the 2 acres of woods, but we can't really build in there.
my brother and his daughter visited and all the kids had loads of fun. first my girls packed their backpacks, planning to go home with them. when i told them it was too far, then olivia decided she was going to stay here. it was cool they had so much fun.
we went to the kinston 5 times in 2 weeks. ouch. kinston is 86 miles away, so that meant a majority of a tank of gas for each trip. fucking gas prices.
we went to the beach.
jonathan went back to work last monday.
my camera is on its last legs.
i planted tomatoes and squash, basil, and jalapenos. for some reason, all my cilantro diappeared. oh well, i'll plant more. my oregano from last year is getting fairly large. anyone need some oregano? my rosemary is coming alogn as well.
i worked an extra shift almost every week while jonathan was out. why do things fall apart while i'm at work?
fuck. i did have more to say, but i can't think.
i have to start posting a little more. my brain is cosntipated from no writing.

a friend sent me a link to an article in the news and observer today. apparently one of my old friends was arrested for sodomy in private. what is wrong with this city? (this world for that matter) i am really just stunned by this. apparently, my friend had someone over, they had sex, then the guy went wacko on him, threatening to disembowel him. my friend called the raliegh police, who arrested them both for sodomy in private. and he had to pay $3000 bail to get out of jail for having sex in his home. does anyone else have issue with this?

and i just thought this was funny... in a painful sort of way.




there's been a lot going on lately. i'll touch down soon and let you guys know more.

you know, when i was young, it was a saying that "mama always said if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything. these days, i wish people would consider this thought before speaking.
in this age of internet, people have come to the general belief that
1. their opinion matters and
2. that it's okay to slam someone that isn't present
as if it's not enough to say, "i don't agree with this person and here is why." in fact the whys are often lost.
at one time, i didn't even mind these scathing reviews. but now it's so omnipresent that it is nauseating. and it's all or nothing. either slamming a person or gushing over them. i t's like people think they have to take a side, a stance, join a group. but most of the time and as time has passed, it has begun to spill into day to day life. the idea of respect is becoming non-existent in our society. and the worst thing - those most guilty are the ones screaming about the nation's declining morals. what about the nation's declining manners? that is the biggest threat to society as it is.
these days, even saying excuse me is too much for people. i have, more than once, had people bump into me, even knock my kid with a shopping cart, rather than say, "excuse me." and you know the most common time for these occurrences (not that it's not year round) christmas season. the time for love and remembering the birth of christ. (at least for many of these people) the very people speaking of morals, don't even know compassion. they talk of christ and god's judgment, while not comprehending the love and and compassion should extend to the world, not just themselves.
oh yeah, here we are in the age of me.
of course, this is my opinion and just that.
but please consider kindness. try saying excuse me.

been a little out of touch lately. i’m sure you didn’t even know it.
as reported a few weeks ago, jonatha broke his right hand and had to have surgery, and is still out of work. i tried working extra hours, but it seems to take it’s toll on the house. he gets his cast off next wednesday and should start physical therapy then. not much more time out.
iona had her 5th birthday. it lasted almost a week. it’s a tradition around here to stretch birthdays out a few days. when laura was a kid it was easier, as it was only she and i. but this just kind of stretched out 5 days. she got a lot of barbies.
then it was easter. eggs and chocolates, yum. had a nice lunch at my mom’s place.
then, last week, we had to stay in a motel for 4 days while our bathroom floor finally got repaired. now i can actually have someone over and not be concerend they (or myself) might fall through the floor. then landlord has cancer and took many months to make the repair.
so then i’ve worked some extra days. and then laundry.
help i’m sinking!
i need a break. but at least this crap-o-blog made me sleepy. because i am up far too late.
but i really need to do a good blog.
soon.
but now...

well, i don't expect that or anything, but you know, a moment to clean a rooom and complete the task. at this point, for me, that would be quite a task for me and, yes, progress.
last week, from sunday to saturday, i was taking care of a variety of ailments, including, but not limited to, a broken hand, colds, and to put a cap on it all, rotovirus at the end of the week, so yes, puking and diarreah. and, i had to also get the cold mid week. so, it was an adventure, and why my status was that i had turned my home into an infirmary for a few days.
the broken bone, if you don't already know, was jonathan. he had just gotten a new skateboard the day before and was antsy to test it out. he will not be using that new skateboard any time soon. he broke both the wrist and some of the small bones around the wrist. i take him today to the hand specialist to find out what they are going to do, and how long it will take to heal. i took him to 3 appointments last week. and being the right hand, and with him being right handed, i have had to do a bit to help him. it must suck to be him.
i have had several people make comments about him skateboarding "at his age". jesus freaking christ, he's only 30, and i would rather have him skateboarding than acting like an old man. so, in case you were thinking otherwise, i like that he still skateboards. he's done it all his life. i don't think people should just lay down and die just because their numbers have changed.
but any hoo, i don't know why i just said all that. but, it is true.
and everybody is pretty much on the mend, as far as the cold and stomach bugs go. it was a trip, but not that bad.
iona is once again watching the "be prepared" song from the lion king. (the one scar sings, if you've seen it" she watches it over and over. at least she picked the coolest song on the movie, i suppose.
so all in all, i guess i can now get off of here, and make some progress on my housework, because, i tell ya it suffered last week. a lot.
besides, it's time for a 3 year overdue spring cleaning. maybe a yard sale.

jonathan and asia are out of town at a rally race. he called earlier an he talked for an hour and 3 minutes, yes, i said he. i hardly got a word in edgewise.

and it’s true...
Bill Would End Separation of Church and Super Bowl
what’s amazing is that it is even an issue. why do people need to watch football in a "house of worship". i mean, i know that america worships football too, but that in itself is sick to me.
then there is the fact that the owners of the superbowl have threatened churches with legal action if they have planned superbowl showings on large screens. the superbowl claims exclusive rights to all things superbowl.
so, let’s take it to congress and make it a bill that churches have limited rights so that they can watch the superbowl a church. because the superbowl people are greedy.
it’s just really weird to me.
people really should realize that you just don’t need but so much.
i really don’t fit in with the world as it is. then again, i never quite fit in, why would i want to.

the high tomorrow is forcast for 78 degrees - in freaking february. oh well.

we saw a really cool house on invention nation - they call them earthship biotectures. and yes, i agree the name may sound corny, but these places were built on a used tire foundation, and could be totally self sufficient. it had a garden in a sunroom (in the desert, no less) that was irrigated with grey water from the house. what a fantasy to live in the middle of nowhere with a home like that.
so, like you cared about that.
the wind today was amazing.
we really are nothing.
people ought to stand in the wind or the ocean and realize that our petty desires are nothing in the grand scheme of things
wind.
outside

i'm tired.
you know, i planned to babble more, but... no.

that is quite interesting.